Baby Man

I am not a big cry baby in normal life...except when it comes to this guy.
Yesterday Baby Connor started his special school and it just plain sucks. I know it's a total miracle that he gets to go here, and that it's the best thing in the world for him, but having him there all day makes me feel like someone chopped my leg off.

He rode the bus this morning and it was more than I can bear. Excuse me while I go throw up and cry.

He really likes Bob, the driver, and MaryKay, the aide. He RAN to the bus this morning he was so excited. They brought the bus over to our house a few days ago just so Connor could meet them and run around the bus and play on it. He knew exactly what to do when he saw it today.

He did great his first day, but seized a lot. His teachers did a good job keeping count, which I really appreciate. He's seizing there because he's in class doing therapy when he would normally be sleeping at home. The less sleep he gets, the more episodes he has. Poor little bubs finally fell asleep at the end of an episode for about 30 minutes. Good thing he'll sleep anywhere.

Hopefully he can adjust to this schedule and get used to not having 500 naps a day. He likes it there, which is great. But I'd so much rather have my little boyfriend with me all day, everywhere. Don't know if I can do this.


Jessica said...

Oh man, I almost teared up watching him climb into the bus and get buckled in. I hope it gets easier. Hugs.

Jen and Marty said...

this makes my heart ache for you.

Crazymamaof6 said...

ok so i totally got teary. I've been there.

not with the whole seizure thing. but sending a virtual baby off to school on the bus.

HE IS EFFING CUTE by the way. and i'm totally digging the vans. no matter what he looks cool.

therapy is rad. fingers crossed you both adjust speedy fast. the first few days are the hardest. hang in there mama.

Shanakin Skywalker said...

Connor's a babe. Seriously cute. What is it that he has, if you don't mind me asking?

We use the Meyer's Clean Day stuff too.

Shenay said...

Stay strong mama!

Emilie and Branden said...

Shannon, Connor has epilepsy. We haven't ever been able to control his seizures so he's REALLY delayed. He's doing great though. He's so rad. We are very much in love :)

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Evie B. said...

Honestly, he could not be any more gorgeous. The eyes, the cheeks, the lips. Ugh. Such a big, brave boy riding the bus, too.

Hang in there mama-lady. Sounds like he's in good hands. Prayers for lots of progress coming your way.

We love you guys!

p.s. I worked at a special school near the tree streets YEARS ago. And from the pics, it looks very familiar. Where is it?

LTD in Las Vegas said...

You guys are great parents and doing the right thing even though it is hard. He is so cute! Sounds like he has great teachers who are careful.

Kaerlig said...

If you can't have him home with you, go to school with him. I know G.S. loves parent volunteers and that way you will won't miss all the great things he gets to do.

michelle said...

I love your little man too, and this made me tear up.. oh Ems... Lots of Love going your way!

Holly said...

That (and he) is the cutest thing ever. Good luck adjusting!